This is just a post for myself.. I am feeling so bottled up.. 
I have not been talking about this brother of mine. We share the same mother but not the same father. We seldom contact and our age gap is by 10 years. He is in Sec 1 now. He haven been staying with us for about 7 years or so due to parents divorce and he is with his father but.. his father got a 1 room flat himself, remarried and left him with his grandma..
He is now uncontrollable. Without the love of parents and his grandma do not bother about him as well. He do not have his own room, he do not have computer.. he dont have anything and he dont have any family love at all. I feel like crying for him. As his sister, i feel that i am obligated to do something for him. I told my mom to bring him back.. i would care for him and if need be, pay for his everything.
I'm from a broken family as well since young only with the care of my aunty. I totally understand hw he feels. He go ard telling ppl that his parents divorce and he is without any family love + his grandma dont care about him. 
That is the worse thing that can happen. I am so afraid that he will choose the wrong route. I'm asking myself, what is he doing outside.. Is he learning how to smoke? will he take drugs? He's not at home everyday. He's outside at lan shop or everyday hanging ard at friends house.
His friends say that he is very LOYAL (Jiang yi qi). But in what way? His friend say he can lend ppl money whenever they need and they dont have to return. Is this LOYAL!!!!!! He is silly.. Haiz..
I am going to bring him back tomorrow and let my mom have a good talk with him. Oh well.. How i wish he could change sch and move back with us. We need to let him know that we're always here for him whenever he needs. Haiz..
What is my kimberly doing? Is she awake?
Recently, i have the urge to bring her back and look after her myself. HB and me miss her alot esp after the genting trip. I gotta know that she is learning alot new things and i am missing out on them. Pretty sad but at the same time, i am happy that she is developing and she is getting more independent.
She likes to go gai gai and walk herself nowadays. Whenever she see anyone of us walking out of the house, she will start to scream and yell then cry and cry.. After which throw temper. She wants us to bring her out. Now she is still quite sticky to me. At home she likes to crawl or walk over to me, hug and cuddle me. i find her really really very sweet but she never do that to her daddy!.. she will only sayang daddy when i say.. 'Guai kim go sayang daddy' then she will do so. Thats how sweet she is and i really miss her badly..
It's all happening too fast. Things that i didnt expect..
- Getting married at 21 yrs is something which i definitely did not see it coming. Probably BD-ing got us all excited and thus BOOM! Out kimberly came hahahah! We're trying to maintain a good relationship and give kimberly a wonderful family. I've seen divorce for those who marry at young age. I just pray that i will not be the one.. I love both of them dearly..
- Being a 1st time mother is definitely a great challenge. Learning how to bathe my lil one, doing confinement, breastfeeding, learn cooking (which i dont quite like), changing diapers, touching HER POO!!! but i learnt them and i live with it of cause! i enjoy doing them =)
- Giving all my love for kimberly and putting in whatever i have for the family.
- From all this, i've know that i got a supportive mother, a really care for me aunty and all the help from my 2 bestest cousins.
Family is really important. i am glad that i have them.. thanks to all whom actually supported me through when i was preggy and in a dilemma.. i never regret my decision and i appreciate god for giving me kimberly. She can be a little terror in everyone's heart but definitely a little angel and my dearly princess.
I wonder if i can do the same for #2. I am not as health concious as i have kimberly thus i am getting worried. Just learnt from my col that cant apply zam buk or any medicated oil but i didnt know that. i've been using it to ease my sinus esp in genting. i use it like nobody's biz. I just pray the best for #2. cant wait for my detail scanning this coming friday to ensure that baby is developing well.
Going to really change my diet for the sake of baby. HB is scolding me for eating too much junk food leh. Sighz i really do agree.. He told me that if i really care for the baby and my own health, i should be changing it. Ok! Now i am determined that i will change me diet. I want the bestest for my babes!..
I wanna choose a christian name starting with K for #2 leh.. but like so hard to choose. HB still hope that it's a boy i guess hahahaa.. but gotta disappointed him lah unless the detail scanning show otherwise.
Got to stop here. Need to booooom off...!
Till i write again!
See my Blue psp! Still deeply in love with it BUT BUT... This was suppose to be my birthday present!! My HB always bring to work and i cannot play =/ he is ADDICTED to it while i am in love with it.. BAH!
Genting Trip
How do you think this trip will turn out to be like? The bestest thing is that kimmy learnt how to walk without support there for a longer distance and the WORSE thingy is i was sick thruout the days there! Horrible trip hahahaa..
1st day had bad diarrhea! i guess must be the horrible prata that i add in the morning.. 2nd day started to have fever and u know the series of those flu.. etc all came out.. hahaa..
But nevertheless, we created a strong bonding with our princess! (and we won total of 1.8k ringgit in casino) kekekee..
Photos uploaded! Enjoy peeps...
http://djongfamily.multiply.com/photos/album/17/Kimberly_12
#2 is very active in my tum tum.. always tossing ard.. and movemets is very strong! By the way.. 1st scan shows that it is a girl.. lets see what will our detail scanning be like next week..
Oh yea!!! I got my baby blue PSP! I love it to bits.. *kiss kiss kisss******
My HB got it for me for my 23rd birthday!! so excited hahahaa.. $380 with alot alot games Yippie~ his colleague intro him one and he know i wanted it..
Love it to bits!!!
Well well..
Time flies pass really fast. i am now 19 weeks!
little baby in me is kicking really strong and hard!! Saturday is my gynae scan.. will i be able to tell gender? Lets see! Alamak! must remember to book my detail scanning heheee..
Kimberly
This little terror hor.. *Headache*She keep wanting to walk and keep holding our hand then walk about the house. Now i have difficulty walking with her.. i feel so tired but if i dont, she throw tantrum.. which is worse then walking with her lol..
I realise she enjoyed scolding people now! hope she wont grow up to be very spoilt (which i feel that she is now) ..
Too many people doting on her hence she took it for granted.
Anyway.. Glad to see her growing up so healthily..
It's always my happiness to watch her grow.
She was so tiny in my arms when she 1st came out.. now she's walking about the house..
It feels so great to watch her grow!! Nothing can express it!!
heheheee..
At work, things seems to turn out well At this very moment. New colleague came in today. Hopefully my job scope will lessen. Dec have quite a few holidays. Time will pass very fast adn this little one will pop soon.
Lets wait.. lets wait..
