Have been going for ‘IN---Vi-W’ recently and I feel scared + tired trying to look for it.
Think I feel more comfy in my comfort zone and of cause the benefits is so much better here.
Last night hubby tell me ‘I see u keep finding but no motivation why don’t endure for a while and prepare to be SAHM. I would rather u be SAHM then being so tired and I would think u want to spend more time with the kids’
I am surprised and touched. He can see my effort. He knows that I want to provide the kids the best yet I want to spend a lot more time with them.
Then I gave him a hug and said thanks.
He has never been so understanding towards me before.
I know that he have been trying to change for the better as well.
I am glad and I can see it. I really do!
Though as much as I want to be SAHM, I do not want to burden him with all the financial alone.
Well lets see how we can work about it.
It’s not that I hate my current job hmmm.. just that I tot I could get a better one and earn more $$ to ease his burden as well.
We are not rich but on the other side we are living under one roof happily.
Now I cant wait for our flat to come and have a home truly.
Xmas is over
New year is here
What is my new resolution for the year ahead?
New job? More kids? Or?
Glad that things are getting better now.
Just few days ago, watched twilight with hubby. Hmmm slow but I find that it’s a great show! Gosh how I wish for such romance!
Recent days is just looking after kids, playing mahjong during weekends and just slacking around in office..
I am bored and seem to be bored of everything around me.
At times just feel like ignoring the kids and just lead my own life but I know that I cant.
Well I can feel that responsibility is getting stronger and hence decisions must be wise.
Hope u r doing well in ur business. Good luck and all the best for ur family.
Time is flying .. I am aging.. I need to catch up.. Need to do some planning..
I think I had enough.. Do I still need? Still thinking.. Still pondering.. I should be independent enough to make that decision.
I'm very troubled..
